A message to myself

Tonight I'm feeling like I need to empty my mind and rid myself of all the negative thoughts I have had the last few days. The brackets are my positive after thought from it.

1. A person who disregarded my feelings. (Accept and respect that this person is the way they are, and happily move on. Having someone be so blunt will help you get over it in less than a day. There are much, much more positive people in your life who love you).

2. Barely being able to breathe at night, nose is so swollen and sore, I almost can't take the pain anymore. (Pain is temporary, think about how lucky you are to be alive and be thankful for what you do have. Look forward to the operation in less than a month)

3. A ridiculous argument with sister. (Remind yourself that every tiff is momentary, and forgiveness makes people closer. Think about what a wonderful relationship you have with her already.)

Interestingly enough, I feel much better typing all this ... It's like a weight has been lifted and all my positive thoughts from it have floated back into my mind. All the frustrations I have had, seem so small and unimportant that I feel centered again in the world. I might not be invincible, but my positive energy protects me from all harmful things that come my way.

Lastly, here is an important message to myself: The gift of giving is a wondrous thing, but so is receiving- don't ever give a part of yourself away to those who only want to take from you, and not give back. Save your positive energies for those who you know have a special place in your life. They are the ones who genuinely care about you - and know YOU best.

Irony

Lately, I've been finding life is so ironic. Nearly every situation I've been in has irony. (If you're not quite sure what I mean, listen to Alanis Morisette's song "Ironic")

I honestly believe that positive attracts positive, and negative attracts negative. However, being only human, every now and again I let this personal philosophy slip away without noticing. Recently I thought that my purpose in someone's life was to try and make a positive impact upon them. I soon realized that I was so attached to the idea of making a positive impact on this person, that I'd almost given away a very precious part of me.

I imagined a rope that attached me to this person, and then slowly untying the binding knot that kept me from being happy. As soon as I imagined releasing this person from my worries, it literally took less than an hour to move on and get over it.

From this negative situation, I'd taken a positive turn and seen the light in it. The irony of trying to help someone open their eyes- some people just really don't want to. It's taken me awhile, but I've finally come to the conclusion that my genuine positive nature should be reserved for those who deserve it, or who recognize it and admire it.

I have a really good feeling that I'm going to be meeting some very positive influences in my life. I read a quote that I can't get out of my head: "Something only ever leaves your life, if something better comes along". This wonderful feeling of something great happening in the future has a far greater impact on my life than anything else. I whole heatedly believe that when you have a positive zest for life, you attract positive things.

Nothing ever good comes from a narrow perspective on life. If you believe that everything is doomed anyway, it probably will be. That's how much power you have over your own life. For instance, one of my closest friends was in (what he thought) was a crisis, a rut, and he even said he was going to move overseas to get away from everything. However, after just a few positive impacts on his life, he turned himself around in less than a week. I had an overwhelming feeling one day that I was meant to do something. Later that day I managed to find him some amazing job prospects, and a week later- he'd found his dream job- and he's happier than ever.

Sometimes the smallest positive impact can be the greatest. It's all in the mind. Closing yourself off to the world and it's incredible opportunities, is almost like taking the fast lane to misery. That's just my opinion anyway. :)